“I honestly felt like I was going to die. Jennifer Lopez stated of her loss and eventual reconciliation with her husband Ben Affleck, “It sent me into a downward spiral for the following 18 years, where I simply couldn’t get it right.”
Jennifer Lopez has discussed her journey from heartbreak to real love’ with Ben Affleck, describing their whirlwind relationship as the “most Hollywood-unlikely ending.”
Lopez, 53, told Zane Lowe on Apple Music that her 2004 breakup with Affleck was the “worst heartbreak” of her life.
After becoming engaged in November 2002, the couple was scheduled to wed in September 2003; however, in January 2004, they decided to go their ways.
The following year, after separating from their respective partners, the 50-year-old actor-director and the 25-year-old singer claimed they had reconciled, and they wed in July.
Their second wedding took place on the grounds of Affleck’s $8.9 million (£7.5 million) estate in the U.S. state of Georgia, with overhead photographs showing the couple strolling down a white carpet and embracing at a snow-covered altar.
Referring to the initial intentions to wed, the celebrity told Lowe, “Once we canceled that wedding 20 years ago, that was the greatest disappointment of my life.”
“I honestly felt like I was going to die. It sent me into a downward spiral for the following 18 years, during which I could never get anything right.
“However, twenty years later, it has a happy ending. It has the most impossible-to-imagine Hollywood finale. This would never occur. Nobody would believe such an ending, so we’re not going to write it.”
Lopez stated that she was unable to perform the songs from her 2002 album This Is Me… Then shortly after their separation.
Having made the CD to commemorate their love, she stated that it was “very terrible” to sing the songs.
She continued, “It’s strange because when Ben and I reunited, he said, ‘You’ve never sung the songs. You never did I’m Glad. You have never done so. You have never done that’
“I was like ‘You’re right. It was excruciating’ It was a part of me that I had to abandon to exist.”
Twenty years have passed since the release of This Is Me… Then, Lopez stated that her new album, This Is Me… Now, will be released the following year.
She stated that the new album, her first since 2014, will “chronicle the emotional, spiritual, and psychological journey she has undergone over the past two decades” as well as her life after her reunion with Affleck.
“Therefore, the entire message of the album is that love exists. This is genuine love,” Lopez stated.
“Now I believe that the album’s message is if you were wondering, if you have, like me at times, lost hope and almost given up, don’t. Because true love does exist and some things do last forever, which is true.”
Apple Music provides access to the whole interview with Zane Lowe.
